When the Empath & Narcissist enter into a relationship together, it creates a magnetic, yet dysfunctional union because the Empath gives to the point of complete & utter exhaustion.
Profoundly disoriented, the Empath is often destroyed by the relationship. This experience is painful & overwhelming but ultimately, the Empath undergoes a soul awakening. The Narcissist remains the same.
I find religion, so interesting….it’s always been absent in my life which doesn’t even feel like a choice, whatever granted me the gift of life, made me believe there’s something beautiful that exists beyond and that thought fills me with warmth and safety. Ive been blessed with a profound appreciation and respect for all religions, i am gifted with the deepest feelings and a big heart that loves music created for the The Big G - it’s been like that since I learnt & understood what religion is.
Have a listen to this beautiful voice, her Name is Anna Toria, her voice is just simply stunning. - https://open.spotify.com/track/0ykhfD4kPw3l3cveowiboP?si=69dcc0d8906045cd
I hope you have a wonderful weekend, i cant remember the last time i felt this relaxed.
Nothing but love.
T xoxo
So if your new here Bla Bla Bla posts mean i give you a fat life update which is chaos and may not make sense (I smile as i finished typing that, coz i like being me)
It’s wild how easy it is to get distracted when you’ve got big goals. One minute you’re locked in, focused — and the next, you’re halfway down a rabbit hole of thoughts, plans, people, or feelings that weren’t even on the day’s agenda. Sometimes, you’ve just got to lock the fuck in. That's me right now trying my best.
There’s a bigger vision I’m working towards — and it’s going to take more than just wanting it. Discipline over distraction. Always. Apprently 6 months of consistency can put you 5 years ahead I/WE Got this My Lovers.
Right now, I’m sat in the sweetest little café, iced coffee in hand, the sun beaming on my face — waiting to head off to Leicester for a 10-hour trip (blessed, I’m busy!). I’m missing my people, and sleep’s been a little off… but honestly, life is good. I truly can’t complain.
Last night, I had a shower and felt this wave of gratitude crash over me. Clean water. A full belly. A warm, safe place to rest. it felt so good!
When was the last time you really paused and felt thankful for the simplest things?
This little cute cafe has 9 seats and a counter in it and is servicing coffee and some pastries and they are making Shmoneyyyyyyyyyyyyy it gets me thinking all sorts of creative things and got me wanting to say to my people reading this GO 4 IT..... DO THAT THANG! Its got me writing another business plan hahahaa!
So this lack of sleep.... Lately, I’ve been struggling with overstimulation which is causing me lack of sleep also i haven't been able to workout properly for 3 weeks and when i say properly i mean I've had no weights around nor has there been an actual shop for me to get to—I need weights and a Lidl ASAP i need a bowl of protein and veg! Luckily, my next location has all of that! its amazing how diet, sleep and moving your body has such a impact it will never not surprise me! The overstimulation also is from being around a thousands humans... i had around 45k people walking through my event in 1 day some of them we were wanting to talk to, The energy felt intense guys INTENSE and normally im good with this and people watching is my fave Hobby. But lately Human interaction has been a lesson in patience for me, and my patience is bloody good. I've been protecting my own energy and choosing what (and who) I give my focus to mainly in my job role. I do not believe in ''The customer always being right'' absolutely not and that coming from someone who takes professionalism to another level YA! Dont come for a person who thrives in face to face contact honeyyyyyy....
Some kind News, Over the weekend, I had some beautiful humans working under my little company, EILLIT. I’ve no idea yet on where it’s all going… but it felt real. Like something’s unfolding..... what that is i dont know as it wasn't something i was focusing on really but....
Bit by bit throughout the beautiful chaos and the noise — something beautiful is taking shape in my life. i dont know what it is..... But would you want to work for me? hahaaa
Love..... Lately, I’ve been thinking a lot about love. LOL na i think about it all the time Mate all the freaking dam time, can be so annoying sometimes.
Have i told you that I love love — always have. I’m in awe of it. The way it can soften even the hardest parts of us. The way it makes life feel like magic. And no matter what, I never seem to lose faith in it. Hope still lives in me, even when everything around me tries to dim it. There's always this little voice telling me its not real and its hard because if I’m honest… the relationships I see around me and MANY OTHERS thing that i refuse to write about but some stuff i have seen, heard and been told has been the reason why i laugh at myself for having all this faith.... So many couples forgetting why they chose each other but also some don't even care. So many arguments that start from nowhere, over nothing. Disconnection dressed up as routine. the lack of support from one or another is wild. The lack of accountability is Fooked.... I can’t help but think — life is already hard. It will throw big, heavy, painful things at us. Why make it harder with someone who doesn’t hold you, soften you, see you? but hey what does LiTtlE MiSs ReaLLy GOod At BeinG SiNglE know hahahaa! i do wish you all nothing but the best and all of this comes from a place where i believe we deserve the best form of human connection. Another thing that would make the world a better place if we just worked on believing that.
I guess I’m still holding out for the fantasy — not the fairytale, but the friendship. The best-friend kind of love. The kind where you feel safe. Where there’s laughter and listening and softness. Where the world feels lighter with them in it.
And until that day, I’ll keep believing. Because love — real love — still blows my mind..
I Loved Scotland but also happy to be moving on, I was struck by something I wasn’t prepared for — the sheer scale of homelessness. I’ve never seen it like this before. It felt soul-destroying. People curled up in doorways, wrapped in thin blankets against brutal winds, faces weathered not just by the cold but by a society that walks past them a society that looks very Rich, i am being judgemental there i know. The contrast between the beauty of the country and the quiet desperation on its streets was Jarring. Its not just tents and sleeping bags — it’s eyes full of stories, of pain, of being unseen. It hits you deeply. And it makes you question how we got here. How we let it get this bad. but im not stupid on the fact that we all make choices but no one should have to fight for warmth, safety, or dignity. No one.
So at work the other day, I met this guy, and we were vibinggggg—not in a flirty way, I don't think—just both being ourselves... Let me tell you, we were laughing all day to the point we were crying hard and unable to breathe (hahahaaa, I'm laughing just thinking about it STILL). At one point, between the laughter, he told me he hadn’t laughed like that in over a year. That hit me. To think something so simple could bring someone back to life, even for a few minutes. It was beautiful. Deeply human. And I won’t forget it. Talking about kind humans and working with people, I'm on the train now, travelling with one of my work colleagues and just found out she's a Pisces, and that makes so much sense to me being a Scorpio. Pisces are the loves of my life. WE LOVE PISCES. One of my close friends is a Pisces, and I absolutely adore her, and Ieva (my colleague) really reminds me of her, FUN! KIND, DEEP AND FUNNY! it feels like home! Super grateful for that.
I've got Tracy Chapman playing in my ears!!! Can you imagine if she blessed us with a little comeback? HA! TAKE MY MONEY, Tracy GIRL! Speaking of music... The other night, I stumbled into a pub with live music — totally unplanned. I was actually out, hoping that some food and socialising would help me sleep that night. The crazy part is, as we left the restaurant, I spotted a bar with live music (Hootananny) and paused, whispering ''Music.'' Ieva was like, "Oh Tillz, shall we go? I can see that you need it..." I said no 3 times, guys!!! 3 times! Thinking I was too tired or just not in the mood. Looking back, I realise I’d been isolating myself a bit without even realising it.
But the moment I walked in, I started dancing. Sober, no hesitation — just me and the music. It felt so good. SO GOOD! I even ended up dancing in the rain outside — and it honestly blew my mind. Pure, unexpected joy. It reminded me how important it is to let go and just be in the moment. I can't believe I even needed the reminder! All work and no play is unhealthy for me!
I think I'm home for a week in 2 weeks which would be so bloody GAWJUS I'm totally going out to dance, OOWWWWW thinking of dancing...This Friday I'm going to see JoJo (Mouth open) i cant believe it, i can not believe it! its going to be absolutely vibes & im going with my Soul Sister Charlene Mmmmmmmmmm really kind thoughts, my heart is excited and my smiling is really big! I've got a fantastic week ahead, Theatre tomorrow to watch SIX after work! Hotel has a Gym, pool, Sauna and Steam room and lovely rooms. 2 mins walk from work Jojo on friday with girl and im in a new place to explore! IM SOOOOOOOOOOO EXCITED, i feel like its very much deserved to!
Anyways! The future is bright and i hope life is treating you RIGHT and your loving on yourself HARD!
Nothing But Love.
