My Spirituality.

What an interesting realisation. But most importantly — I’m BACK.

Today, after a year and a bit without fully understanding why until now, I realised I had quietly closed the door on my spirituality. I stopped burning sage and smudge sticks. My crystals were boxed away. I stopped dancing — the thing that i love most to get me out of my head and back into my body. I stopped all connection with my chakras and put my very clever intuition in a corner.

And now I understand why.

In 2024, someone I deeply loved was diagnosed with cancer. I went all in. I sank deeper into my spirituality than ever before, focusing entirely on their healing. I smudged and saged daily. I created a healing altar specifically for them. I poured every ounce of belief, intention, and energy into one outcome only — that they would be well. No doubt. No questioning. Just unwavering focus, hope & Love, i can't even remember if they even knew.

I’m not saying they healed because of this — modern medicine is incredible — but this was my role in the journey. And they healed. Cancer gone.

After that chapter closed and our lives moved in different directions, something shifted in me. I did a full 360. I became very clear on what I truly wanted, and it turned out to be beautifully simple: land for a home, space for a vegetable patch, and a business that gives me financial freedom — for myself and if i were to ever have children. Health, stability, investment. All things that require courage and money.

So in 2025, I reminded myself of a hard truth: if I don’t get uncomfortable, my life won’t change. I went on to built foundations — not everything is finished, but 2025 was a powerful start.

But somewhere along the way, my spirituality stayed behind in 2024. I think with absolutely no regrets and i would do it all over again! but I exhausted myself. i exhausted my soul, my heart, my body, my mind! And even though I promised that once they recovered, I’d turn inward and explore my intuition, id go deeper into my spirituality, everything that has always guided me really really well — I hesitated. I instead closed the door on it and focused on the goals and only the goals that i wanted so badly! and i can't be mad about it as it's the first time in my life where i know what i truly want and that feels so fucking good, im 34 btw! so i suppose after everything and there was alot going on! I only had the energy to focus purely on that! i'm so lucky that my work doesnt drain my soul! anyways!

The truth is, I have a gift. my intuition has never been wrong. I think I’ve been afraid, in fact i know i was/ am because i wouldn't study it at the time the cancer diagnosis was given because i was to afraid that it would change the answer i already had which was he would heal and the Cancer would go! and that's why i wanted to wait till after to go deeper on discovering just how powerful it really is. Also i didn't know how to balance it all at once, But today... We started the unfearful journey! I burned sage! and honestly, wow. Not only that, not only have the signs been really REALLY clear on me coming back to my spirituality, this morning I woke up to four messages from four different

Friends, all sharing how well they’re doing, how much they’re thriving, some inviting me to spiritual workshops and yoga! I haven't had an invite to something like this in over a year, which uplifts me so much. One even sent me a music track she created with her husband. This particular friend/soul sister is my OG with spirituality; she is divine! But I was shocked to find out that she has also not been connected with her spirituality, and that shook me because she is the queen of it! We're both going to work on that! The track they made sent me to another world, it sent me home actually. After 30 minutes of it, I shared the track with my people's straight away and explained how to use it. I’ll share it on here soon because it deserves its own moment. And that was the final sign I needed. My spirituality has been calling me back, loudly.

I danced to the track, which is over an hour long. I cleaned my apartment. I felt that familiar pull — that deep, deep reconnection.

Even yesterday, when I went for a facial, The facialist smudged me while I was wrapped up and ready, she's never done this before. I nearly cried. I didn’t — I love her, but I don’t know her well enough to cry in front of her! But she knew I needed it. That moment mattered more than she'll ever know, and I made sure she felt deeply appreciated.

The universe. The creator. My spirituality. MUVA. Whatever you want to call it. She’s been calling me back like, “Hey T, it’s time. We gave you the space. You’ve had your break. The door’s open again, it’s time. — we’ve been waiting.”

I’m ready. The balance that is needed for this next journey involves me needing to be reconnected. Especially with this version of myself and what I’m about to become and create!

I'm glad to be back! And thank you to my beautiful friends!

Nothing But Love.

T xoxo

Cravings Of Love.

I've been feeling a certain type of way recently about love! I've been craving it like my life depended on it, a deep deep soul connection, everything that comes with a good healthy relationship, i've been craving it so deeply! I've been thinking about how I would love to have a daughter and be a mum, and it felt heartbreaking because, well, I'm super single, no man in sight! beautiful desire's and the heartbreak can both coexist at the same time, im human! But I've just had this really deep, kind of breath taking beautiful feeling. I was thinking about my travels and the gigs/events I have booked & my work that's coming up, all that i believe i need to be showing up for as the best version of me, high standards, high vibrations and strong boundaries. Strong, not just in mind but in body (My core strength phew and my ass is growing) and lets not forget the spiciness! Not only am I going to be living and grabbing opportunities by the balls, I'm also putting myself in really exciting situations that could possibly hand me the chance to meet a wonderful man! and new wonderful people as im also craving community too! HOW LUCKY AM I!! not only to be single and to enjoy this time, but I'm traveling and living! I thought today, I'm doing exactly what I would want my daughter to do if I am ever lucky enough to have one! This year is about exactly that - heavy on Living, health, Wealth! i want to get so much from this one little life and i want to give my future children, life, partner and myself the best version of me! I don't know what the future holds but i do know that it's about the journey and the stories! ohhh the stories i already get to tell and the stories i'll be able to tell! Takes deep breath & smiles**

I hope this might help anyone who ever feels the same! Love ya!

Nothing But Love.

T xoxo

Van Gogh

I'm studying art, and I've landed on the fascinating world of Vincent van Gogh. It's intriguing how, at first glance, one might feel a sense of familiarity with his work because of its immense popularity and iconic status in the art world. His paintings, characterized by vibrant colors and expressive brushwork, are instantly recognizable and often seen in textbooks, galleries, and even on everyday merchandise. However, as I delve deeper into his life and artistic journey, I realize that my understanding of him as a human being was quite superficial.

The more I learn about Van Gogh, the more I am struck by the complexities of his character and the profound struggles he faced throughout his life. One aspect that particularly captivates me is his deeply emotional relationship with his brother, Theo van Gogh. Their bond was not just that of siblings; it was a lifeline for Vincent, providing him with both financial support and emotional encouragement during his turbulent life. Theo believed in Vincent's talent when few others did, and he stood by him through his mental health crises and periods of intense creativity.

If you are curious read below......

Van Gogh admired his elder brother Vincent for his whole life, but communicating with him proved to be difficult, even before Vincent became an artist. The communication between both brothers suffered from diverging definitions of standards, and it was evidently Theo who kept on writing letters. Vincent did not keep all the letters Theo sent, but Theo kept every scrap of correspondence from his brother (651 letters addressed to Theo in total).^[16] Most of Vincent's replies survived but only 32 of Theo's remain.^[16] Theo was often concerned about Vincent's mental condition and he was amongst the few who understood his brother.^[17] It is known that Theo helped Vincent maintain his artist lifestyle by giving him money. He also helped Vincent pursue his life as an artist through his unwavering emotional support and love. The majority of Theo's letters and communications with Vincent are filled with praise and encouragement. Vincent would send Theo sketches and ideas for paintings, along with accounts of his day-to-day experiences, to the delight and eager attention of Theo.^[18]

His brother Vincent died in July 1890 at age 37, after shooting himself with a revolver. Theo suffered from dementia paralytica, now understood as late-stage neurosyphilis,^{[10][11][12][13]} and his health declined rapidly after Vincent's death. Unable to take the loss of his brother, he died six months later at age 33, in Den Dolder.^[14]

Van Gogh's great-grandson, also named Theo van Gogh, was a film director, who was murdered on the streets of Amsterdam in 2004 by an Islamic extremist after making a short film critical of the treatment of women in Islamic culture.^[15]

There's so much more about them both, if you want to read more here's the link: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Vincent_van_Gogh#:~:text=a%20Dutch%20Post%2DImpressionist%20painter%20who,the%20history%20of%20Western%20art.

Also if you have any Artist's you'd recommend learning about please send them through!

Nothing But Love.

T xoxo