A Fine Balance of “Fk” and “Wow;

I am a beautiful mess at the moment — Things i cant control got me unorganised, chaotic, and somehow still moving with a full heart.

Picture this: someone’s gently on my back — light as a feather — but their hands are over my eyes. No matter how hard I try, I can’t pry their hands away. It’s funny… and maddening. Imagine the first 30 seconds of someone doing that to you — feel that frustration. Now imagine that 30 seconds on repeat.

That’s how life feels right now. what really kills me is all the small things and what really makes me so so so soo happy is also the really small things.

And still… I AM SO BLESSED, So lucky. Everything I once dreamed of — it’s here. It’s happened. Now I just need to ground myself, get organised, and vision the next phase.

Right now, I’m on a train to Glasgow again. The sun is shining — it’s absolutely freezing — but the light is golden, and my whole body can feel the beauty of life… and its ache. It’s like an adrenaline rush to the soul. I’ve got my headphones in. Maria Callas. Ludovico Einaudi.

And I still can’t believe I found this song. I was lying on the bed of my hotel — God, it was gorgeous — and the radio was playing softly in the room. That track came on, and I just melted. The feeling… the thoughts… they were delicious. Deeply present. Deeply grateful.

(Thank God for Shazam.)

Is it normal to feel this happy and this sad at the same time?

Because the balance of it all… feels kind of perfect.

Nothing but Love, Always

T xoxo

I did that.

When someone says to you “ I haven’t laughed like that in a few years” - How healing. How fucking beautiful & boy did we laugh! ♥️

HOLY MUVA OF LAWD.

Okay little story time, ya girl is super unavailable at the moment…… and quite frankly doesn’t need to have any distractions especially DICK distractions - (go back and say dick in a Scouse accent)! Soooo she invested in something new

(see picture below) now….I’ve had/have toys….but my god THE ROMP SWITCH is something I have NEVER experienced before, actually I have but in real life! Seriously this thing worries me, it makes me think things like why do I need a man (hand over mouth) STOP I know I do want a man. I want the connection I do. But this little thang right here is going to keep me on the road to being open to something of high standards not even within the man I am so lucky to meet. £16 TREAT YOURSELF #superdrug also the pleasure balls I thought vibrated but they are in fact just balls that help with your pelvic floors & give you pleasure….No woman would never be mad about that.

Nothing but Love

T xoxo