Mad wave of insecurity!

It took me just over an hour to get ready for the gym with a few pauses staring into the sky because of how shocked I was on HOW incredibly insecure I felt! Please lawd NEVER let me feel that again! …. But why??? I’ve now absolutely smashed a lifting sesh at the gym and I feel cured but still so shocked. Maybe it was a something getting me ready to step up a level lol definitely was a kick up the fucking arse….. and as I stand here….. i think the person I’m becoming is ready for the next level and of course uncomfortabilty is KEY! Hmmmmm let’s see! I’ve got a plan.