What did you dream about last night?

I had the most beautiful, vivid dream last night.

I cleared all the evil from the world. I was the chosen one — Superwoman energy. No one could stop me, no one could hurt me. I stood fully in my power.

In the dream, I made Trump stand naked in front of everyone who supports him. Anyone who didn’t support him stayed home — but his supporters, no matter where they were in the world, were brought there by my power. I gave him an honesty pill so the madness could finally be exposed. He admitted everything. I wanted the world to hear it. No violence, no blood — because that would make me no better. His ego was punishment enough.

Then I said, “Bibbidi Bobbidi Boo” ✨And he, his supporters, and the rest of the evil in the world vanished.

We all lived happily ever after.And I grew a huge veggie patch, fed the community with my overgrown tomatoes, and won a competition for them.

I woke up happy.

Which felt like magic, because I’d spent the last five days in a low place. Two of those days I tried to fight it — to think my way out of it — until I realised I had to surrender. And that’s why I’m sharing this.

If you’re reading this and you live with depression, here’s what I held onto: my habits. I ate well. I drank my two litres of water. I showed up to the gym and my classes every day. I gave myself grace. i even made a mood board and stood on business and i slept alot! I didn’t have control over how I felt — but I did have control over how I cared for myself.

I know I’m lucky. I can spend months feeling high on life, deeply happy — and then I crash.

I spent two days being angry at myself for feeling low — until I realised it wasn’t going anywhere just because I told myself I wasn’t “allowed” to feel it. I’m human. And the body always knows. I’m learning now that even during happiness, life still lands its hits. Plot twists arrive. Truths surface, you find out things that you have no idea how your body or heart is going to feel once you are told, you can think of it and be okay about it! but once someone confirms it... well....the body feels what the body feels and you can reaction and leave you feel confused! This week was one of those moments of all the hits, plots twist, truths and confirmations were fully felt, the hit tank was overfilled. And strangely but not so strange… I’m grateful for it now. *Takes deep breath in and exhales! i feel better, i feel lighter & the hit tank is empty and ready to go handle shiiiiiii!!!

I’m back. The spring in my step has returned. I’m focused again.

Learning to self-regulate. Learning to understand myself. Knowing yourself is everything.

So....... when you feel like you can't control your depression, healthily control the things you can! eating well, sleeping well, nourish your body! speak to yourself as best friend because that is exactly what you should be to yourself! be kind to yourself Darlin' and when the storm passes your back to being your beautiful, strong, thriving self!

Nothing But Love.

T xoxo