This year…

I feel like I haven’t caught up with this version of me! I like her, I love her and I’m so bloody proud of her but….. I don’t know her yet! I’ve evoled and grown up so much, I feel like I’ve not actually met this new version of myself properly! It’s like we’ve had a quick hand shake, gave each other a nod and cracked on with the levelling up! I sometimes don’t recognise myself! Strange & enlightening! P.s I have had a wine as you can tell from the eyes! And I’m on the train home from London LOL! And I’m due on in 4days! Bless me! ALL FEELINGS ARE VAILD OKAY! And I’m feeling soooooooo much lately!

Nothing but Love.

T xoxo

I'm not in love right now, but the way it lingers in me/around me feels like a promise.

Mad to think thatvthe love of my life is out there, that theres someone out there who will want and is going to give me the whole world and want to understand what i need.... and how i deserve to be loved. Owwww he gunna love on me so hard! i say this with absolute confidence because that is exactly how i love! lucky me, Lucky Him!

If you don’t let people in!

Imagine you're on a long road trip. Along the way, you stop and ask the locals for directions. But when they ask where you're headed, you only give them fragments, just enough to point you in a direction but not enough to truly guide you.

They don't know your car stalls on steep hills.

If they did, they would've sent you down a flatter road. They don't know you're managing a medical condition. If they did, they could've pointed you to the nearest pharmacy so you stayed safe along the journey. It's not that they didn't want to help, you just didn't give them the full picture to know how. And that's exactly how vulnerability works in our relationships.

When you don't open up, people can only support you with the tiny pieces you hand them. They might steer you, but they can't truly guide you.

They can't protect you. They can't show up in the ways you actually need because you never let them see the terrain you're navigating.

Being transparent isn't about oversharing, it's about giving the right people enough of your truth so they can walk with you, not accidentally lead you somewhere that makes your journey harder.

If you don't let people in, they won't know how to support you, how to love you, or whether they're even meant to be on the road with you in the first.

Derick.